Losing It All: Three Years Ago Today

Three years ago today, I was impatiently waiting in the labour and delivery triage for my turn on the surgical table. I was waiting to meet the newest boy to perfect our family. This was going to the fourth boy that my husband and I brought into the world.

When we found out that we were pregnant with J, we thought maybe we might get a girl. You know there is a 50/50 shot that it would be! When we went for our ultrasound the technician said that J would in fact be a boy! Hubby and I just laughed.

Having had three boys before this one, we had a hard time finding the perfect name for this baby. All three boys before him had names before they were a reality. J, on the other hand, didn't have a name until about three weeks before he was born. The names that we finally agreed on, are a legacy to those he shares them with. I can't imagine him called anything else.

J's c-section was a little more difficult then the ones before him. When he finally came out, I remember the nurses and the doctors commenting on how big he was. That I didn't have a baby, but a toddler! I looked over as they took him to the side to get his checks done and to be cleaned up. I remember thinking, he's not that big. He was taken out of the surgery room to be weighed and looked over more thoroughly when a nurse came back in to tell us his weight. He was a whopping 10lbs!! I was shocked to say the least.

I have loved this small boy with all of my heart. It's amazing to me that after four kids I haven't had to subtract love from any of them but have instead multiplied it. Sometimes I feel like the grinch at the end of the movie when his heart breaks the constraints that are placed around his heart.

J is the boy that is most likely to break the rules. He doesn't verbally communicate very well but he is very good at showing in gestures what he would like. He loves to play on his own but he loves playing with his brothers just as well. He adores his big brothers and wants to do whatever they do, sometimes to there chagrin. He is the most cuddly of all the boys and wants to shower those that he loves with lots of hugs and kisses. He wants to sit on top of his brothers when they play their iPods. He loves to watch them play their games. I'm sure it won't be long until he is playing along with him. He loves movies. He loves to watch anything Cars or Cars 2 related. He loves Strawberry Shortcake and the shows that she is in. He has a huge collection of Disney Cars and likes to have them in his bed at night. When his dad comes home in the evening, he is very vocal about his excitement and runs around the house yelling Daeee home! Daeee home!! He loves to call his dad on the phone and ask him to come home every day. He loves to cuddle when watching TV. He loves to help when it comes to baking. He is opinionated about what he wants and how he wants it. He is compassionate and empathetic. He is quick to say I'm sorry when he has done wrong. He loves Chiquita. He is always hugging and kissing her and trying to be best friends with her. He has a love/hate relationship with Tessa. He is very judicial when it comes to our great dane. He is an outdoor lover. If given the choice he would never be inside. He loves to go fishing in the winter and the summer. He will be a great fisherman in long line of fishers.