I got up earlier than normal today. Six ten actually. My shins had been killing me when I was on the treadmill, so I looked up some things to do to prevent them from hurting. Today I spent about 5-10 minutes stretching. Don't get me wrong, I stretch every time I tread, but I did some extra stretches today and surprisingly enough, my legs don't hurt today!
I accidentally pulled the emergency cable today, so I haven't got any stats except for my heart rate topping out at 141 bpm. So that's good. I think that my stats today would be the same as the last couple of times.
So obviously I haven't blogged in two weeks. I haven't been on the treadmill at all in two weeks. Sad. The week before last, hubby and I took a caregivers course for three days. It was draining mentally and emotionally. So I took the last two days of the week off. Also I had strep throat and my throat was incredibly sore. The thought of huffing and puffing was just a little too much.
Last week I didn't treadmill either. I lost the motivation. I noticed something during the two weeks that I didn't treadmill. I ate terribly! I was looking for sugar all the time and justifying it also. I felt like such a glutton!
And then last night I was talking with hubby about all this. I felt like he was pretty disappointed in the lack of consistency with tread milling. I don't blame him. I am too. I am tired of being this way. I am tired of being overweight. I am tired of disappointing.
This is all going to take time. You are not disappointing to me. You are amazing. How many people can say that they are going to get up earlier to tread mill when they have four kids and often three more kids to take care of? How many more women can say this and take care of their family the way that you take care of yours? Yes, you are trying to make positive changes but cut yourself a break - you have lost a one week not a year. You didn't gain 100 lbs, you have simply identified something that you have noticed - one healthy decision usually follows another and vice versa. Regardless of how you look and feel to yourself I think you are amazing.
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