Summer Time

Remember when you were a kid and school would let out for the summer and you were just so excited to stay home and run around outside and just be free?  Remember when you got a little older and you liked to sleep in?  Remember when you became a parent and sleep was all you ever wanted?  Remember when your kids got out of school for the summer and you were so excited that you got to sleep in even a smidgen on weekdays and you were excited for it?  Hello!  That's me!  Please forgive me if I'm not blogging consistently.  It means that I haven't been tread milling, but it's the summer!  It's a time for sleeping in and being outside.  Relaxing and having water fights.

So, yes, it's been awhile again since I wrote.  But it's not like I haven't been active.  I have been, just not in a way that I can sit down and blog about right away.  Today I tread milled and I hope to keep it up for all this week and maybe even next week too.

So that's it for today.  I hope that any one who is reading this is having an awesome summer and is enjoying whatever weather they are getting.  Until next time!

Tempting

Today I was tempted to just stay in bed and not get up.  I don't have any extra kids today so that could have been accomplished.  But I knew that if I didn't get up today, I probably wouldn't have got up tomorrow.  So here I am.

It was hard work on the treadmill today.  Everything is a little sore and didn't want to move the right way.  I was excited when my cool down started.

Anyways see you tomorrow.

Where I'd Rather Be.....

Today I would rather be in my bed sleeping then running on the treadmill.  It's summer and that means it's sleep in days.  But I really would like to be in better shape so here I am.

I have been running the last times I have been on the treadmill.  I want the calorie burn to be going up when I am doing this.  I read that you need to burn 3200 calories to lose a pound in a week.  It feels like the impossible dream.

Anyways see you tomorrow!

It's Been Awhile

Well it has again been awhile since I have blogged.  The silence is mostly because I have been uber busy.  The last week in June, my sister was still here from New York with her baby daughter.  It was also the last week of school.  Oh and I was babysitting C at 6:30 in the am.  I really didn't have the motivation to get up at 5:30 and then be in a good mood for the day.  By the end of the week we had to take J for allergy testing in Edmonton.  It was just a chaotic week!

The week after was the first week of summer vacay, so how could I not use that to sleep in and enjoy it a bit!  But that's all over now and I am going to be back on schedule.  Maybe tread milling will help me to get out from under the black cloud that I've been living in.

I feel great today after being on the treadmill.  I think this heat wave that we are currently having helped me today.  We woke up to a house that says it is 26 degrees in here.  It's stifling and toasty in here.  With it being so warm, I am sweating like crazy so maybe the heat helps with that a little.  I seriously don't know if I have ever sweat like this!  It's great!

Alright I gotta get a move on, so I guess I be back tomorrow!

Two Weeks

Today is the day that I have done two weeks straight of 5 consecutive workouts.  I haven't listed it as a goal for awhile, but I am cautiously optimistic about achieving it.  The reason I am cautious is because I don't want to get all excited and proud only to not go 5 days next week.  Does that make sense?  I feel like my brain will tell me 'It's ok if you miss today, you did 5 days last week'.  I don't want that.  I want to continue doing the 5 days.  So maybe I won't celebrate to loudly instead.  (I am really happy that I have done it though, it makes me excited to have a achieved this tiny goal!)

Yesterday was a bad day food wise.  I went out with my sister for lunch, which wasn't bad, but it was so hot yesterday that we got slushies and then picked supper up also!  So today I will try to be a little more careful.  I am so glad that she is here.  I have missed her so very much.  I got to meet my niece finally and she is so wonderful.  She is a happy little soul and a constant smile.

Today we are having family pictures taken.  I found this website that does an amazing thing.  It's called the Maple Leaf Mission.  I won't try to explain it all here.  I'll just let you click the link and read about it instead.  I am excited to do this.  I'm sure that it will be interesting as we haven't done professional extended family portraits since I was pregnant with A and that was 8 years ago.  Now there are 6 children under the age of 8, two of them under the age of a year and a half!  It should be interesting and if all goes well I will post a couple of pics when we finally get them.

Well I guess that's it for today.  I won't be tread milling this weekend, so I will see you on Monday!  Have a great weekend!

A Ramble

I tread milled today.  I don't know what else to write.  So whatever happens here is just me going.  I have been down in the dumps lately.  Losing weight is really hard.  Changing my life is really hard.  So many things I have done to get here.  My lack of self control is overwhelming to me.  I am so sad that I can't let something delicious pass me by because I just need to satisfy my momentary longing.  The mind stuff that goes with living healthier is insane.  It is so stupid that I feel the need, the desire to go and buy a drink every time I go out somewhere.  But I do.  I don't know why.  I don't remember it being this way.  Is this a grownup thing?  Is it what society and our communities and businesses are saying to us?  Get a drink! Not only get a drink but spend five or more dollars to satisfy yourself.     It's very rare to go anywhere now where someone is not carrying a Starbucks or Tim Hortons cup.  The desire to get a specialty drink is intense.  If it wasn't a drink it would be something else.  We have a wonderful cupcake place here in town.  I am sure that if it was easier to get to, like if they had a drive thu, I would be there every time I went out too.  Cause what goes better with a five dollar drink then a three dollar cupcake?  Anyways I am just trying to say that losing weight and living healthy is a lot harder then most people would think, especially when the will power is fleeting.

See you tomorrow!

Better Late Then Not At All

Well today's workout was a little late.  So tired this morning that when I got up I just went and had a warm bath.  It was nice to spend a little time relaxing with no noise around me.  But now I'm sweating cause I just felt too guilty not doing the workout.  So here I am posting in the evening.

I think that this might be it for the post tonight.  I am hoping to be up again and doing this in less then 12 hours.  So I guess I'll see you in the morning!

Holding On

Today I had to hold on to the treadmill for a short time.  My legs are aching.  I should probably slow down.  But I have this crazy thing in my head basically saying 'no pain, no gain'.  I am not sure if this is a true thing in the workout world.  I'm sure there has to be some pain, but my legs hurt so much going faster.  I should mention also that I upped the incline have a degree and that's probably why they hurt this week more then before.  Maybe tomorrow I'll bring it down a bit and see if that makes a difference.

Today I am sweating more than normal.  It's actually going into my eyes and I have rivulets on my neck.  It's disgusting but I'll take it!

In other news, feeling really down the last 24 hours.  No particular reason, just not feeling 'up'.  I want to crawl into bed and stay there for awhile.  I hoped that J would wake up when I was coming out of my room and stay up so that I wouldn't have to treadmill today.  I didn't want my alarm to go off.  I just feel like blech.

Anyways, sorry to be such a downer.  Hopefully I'll be feeling better tomorrow.

Week Two

Today is the mark of week two in which I have gotten up on a Monday morning.  It was hard to do cause we had a great weekend.  And today it's gloomy and rainy outside.  Not that I mind the rain.  But it just makes everything feel mellow and melancholy.

I feel great.  I truly love how good I feel after I have exercised.  I don't feel that great when I am on the treadmill but the after part is amazing.  My legs are so sore today though.  They are painfully sore from shin splints.  I did the stretches, but today it didn't seem to make a difference.  I think that it might be my shoes.  I've been looking for new ones but have yet to get any.

I read this week why staying hydrated is essential to weight loss.  Most of you probably know this already but I'll tell you all again.  When we don't stay hydrated, our body starts to conserve water.  When we conserve water it adds up to water weight.  So if you drink more water then your body needs it won't conserve the water you give it.  It's something I knew already but it's an important thing to remember.

So I see you tomorrow I guess!

Music

I have found that music can really help me or hinder me on the treadmill.  If I get the right song, I have no problem at all keeping my pace going.  But if it's the wrong one, not so easy.  I find mainstream music is much easier to walk to.  There are a couple of artists that I really enjoy walking to.  Flo Rida and Keasha are two of them.  When any of their songs come on (with the exception of one or two), I just have no problem going.  Some of their lyrics leave some things to be desired but whatever.  When I am on the treadmill, I pretend that there is a rope behind my butt and I can't let myself touch it.  It helps me to stay going and not to be lagging on the tread.  So when the right song comes on, I have noticed that I have no problem staying where I am supposed to be on the tread.  In fact I rarely have to think about where my body is at all.

I tread milled today obviously.  Today was the hardest day on the treadmill.  My legs are sore and they didn't really want to do any walking.  I stretch every morning, so I'm not sure why they are hurting so badly today.

On a side note, my sister that lives in New York will be in Alberta Canada tomorrow!!  I will meeting my newest niece for the first time this coming week and she will be meeting her newest nephew.  I am super excited to see her and can't wait until they come up north!

Anyways, maybe I'll see you tomorrow.  I don't know yet.  We shall see.

What music do you listen to when working out?  What kind of stretches do you use?

Hot Sauce

Last night at the boys' martial arts class, the owner of the dojo showed me a bottle of hot sauce that he has on his desk.  I took the lid off and smelled it and it had a pretty good odour to it.  Then he told me to give it a try.  He said if I did to make sure that it was just a tiny taste because it's crazy hot.  I touched my pinky to the rim and tasted.  Almost immediately I had tears in my eyes.  It wasn't just hot it was HOT!!  I felt like I should have a huge blister on my tongue.  Then he told me that this hot sauce is the third hottest sauce in the world.  He also said that when we is training people for competition he makes them put the sauce on a cracker, eat it and then go and spar.  He said it helps to build a pain tolerance, because in competition they will be in more pain then all this.  Anyways, I thought that it was pretty cool to have tried the third hottest hot sauce in the world.

I tread milled today.  I am now sweating like crazy.  I don't really seem to start sweating for real until I start my cool down.

Well I better go.  J has been crying for awhile.  Usually he just goes back to sleep but I don't think that's happening today.  See you tomorrow.

Fixed

My computer is fixed!  I am indeed sitting in front of and writing with it today!  Oh my, I am so happy! All the data is still here!  I bought an external hard drive yesterday.  I brought it home and was clueless about what to do with it.  I took it back and bought something else.  I took the risk that was formatting it and surprise, surprise it worked!  The first one I bought would have worked fine, but I was terrified to do the formatting for it.  Oh well this one works!

Hubby and I went to bed earlier then normal last night.  Just after nine.  He had to get up at 5am to go to work so I went to bed with him.  Which was probably a good thing.  Yesterday was a long and hard day.  J was so incredibly cranky that I was ready to pull my hair out!  He goes from be super cute and in a great mood to this little terror that is impossible to please!  Drives me crazy!  So we went to bed early.  I didn't feel Hubby get up.  My alarm went off at 6.  I didn't want to move.  I was so tired!  My brain kept saying turn the lights on, you'll never get up if you don't!  I turned them on but I think that if i didn't get moving, I would have fallen back to sleep with them on.

As far as my goal of writing the things I eat down, not going well but, I have noticed that I have become a lot more aware of what is going into my mouth and that's a start.  I used to write down everything when I did Weight Watchers, but it felt so silly reading boxes and then writing it all down.  It felt like in school when you are told to read this book.  I never liked being told to read this book.  I like reading for pleasure not because I have to.  What's funny is the books were almost always good. They were books I probably would not have read it I wasn't told to.  I think that writing what I eat down is a little the same way.  I enjoy food.  But I don't want it to be a job.  That's probably how it will have to be though, until I can get the hang of what my body needs and not just wants.

Anyways sorry for the rambling.  It feels good to be writing on a computer again.  I feel great now that I have been up for the last hour.  See you tomorrow!

Today

I took the two weeks of exercising off. I've been back on for two days now and I find I have missed doing the work! I misses the sweat dripping off my face and down my back. I love the way I feel after getting off the treadmill and then starting my day. It feels good. So I obviously treadmilled today. I stayed up late finishing a book, sonthis morning my alarm was ringing in my dream for a little while until I actually heard it. I almost accomplished my water yesterday. I was off a few cups but I was much closer then usual. My computer is fixed. I'm going to pick it up today along with an external hard drive. I am happy to report that all my data is supposedly there! You have know idea how happy that makes me. I was so excited on the phone with the technician that I asked when I saw him if I could hug him. He laughed and was like I guess so. I'd hate to see what I'd be like if I won a million dollars or a trip to my dream destination. I've always thought I would just be like yea! But I think I'd probably be a little pyscho. I ate a few things I definitely should not have yesterday but did mostly good. Hubby and I had BBQ at our house this past weekend and everyone brought cakes. Some got left behind. I did have a friend come over for lunch. She volunteered to brin McDonald's over. It was a long hard battle deciding what to have. Normally I would have the big Mac but I opted for a salad instead. I know they say that the salads are almost as bad as the burgers but I think that's more from the dressing then anything, so I tried to only use half of it. It was a tasty one. She got me a Tuscan grilled chicken, yummy! Well I better go, kids to get up and going and I should probably get ready for my day also. Until tommorow, keep striving for your goals!

Back at it again

I am back. The last week I wrote was an insanely hectic one. I missed getting up, but we had so very much going on getting up was the thing that slid on the priority list. We went camping to Two Lakes that weekend. It was cold but fun. J did not sleep well out there. He thought because I was lying right there beaide him he could have a night time snack whenever he wanted. Needless to say I got very little sleep while trying to keep my shirt down, hence last weeks absence. I'm still not completely caught up on sleep, but of I don't get back to this when will I? So treamilled today. I didn't do the Pilates. I did do extra stretching and extra time though. This weeks goals. I sat down last week and went through a stack of cook books to look for recipes. I found a bunch of great ones. So as soon as my computer is back I will be printing off a bunch of things to complete my menu board. I think I am going to keep better track of my food intake also. It's always one I the scary things to do. You always think you eat better then you do. I know that I sneak a lot of sugary stuff so that will be my down fall. So my goals for the week are these: 1. Find a few more recipes for menu board 2. Start writing down what gets put into my mouth 3. Drink more water, a minimum of 8 cups of water Tell me your goals for the week! See you tomorrow!

Not Happening

Today's workout is just not happening. I got up and was dressed in my usual gear. I went out of my bedroom super quietly only to hear the pleading cry of my youngest son. I waited for a few minutes in the hall hoping that he would just lay down and go back to sleep. But he knew I was in the hallway. Every time I tried to inch my way down the stairs, he would start up again. I knew that my morning was hooped. So I got J out of his crib and layed in my bed and nursed him for like half and hour. I'm sad that I didn't treadmill but I'm much happier that I got to bind with my babe. After all he's only like this once. Tomorrow I hope is a little better in the way of exercising. Until then, stay cool!

Monday Morning

Hello Monday! I don't often get out of bed on time on Monday's to do my workout, but husband manages to get two extra days of this week so will be camping. I thought I should get up so I do at least four days of exercise this week. There goes my goals again! So I did my workout this morning. I tried the Pilates buns and thighs DVD today. My hips were so sore doing it. I thought maybe it was just my crappy hips but then the instructor said that we should really be feeling a burn in that place, so I guess it wasn't my crappy hips at all. All the data on my computer may be gone forever. Thankfully I did print most of the pics that I have, but it's nice to have the originals, you know? So if you pray, pray that apple will be able to retrieve all my data. It is making me quite anxious if I consider that they might not be able to. See you tomorrow.

Hard

I did my workout today. The Pilates DVD has completely kicked my ass. I'm hoping that as I continue and lose weight that it will become easier. This is hard. I need some encouragement no critiques please. Remind me why this is worth it.

Today

So today is Thursday. I had to have the alarm go off to get up today. Exercising is tiring. I think that if I had known how much better I slept when doing exercises, I think I might have been more likely to do it. Oh well, hindsight is 20/20 right? I think that I may be down about seven pounds. I have been weighing myself every other day and seems that it's consistent. I am skeptically optimistic about it. I need to focus more on my diet and what actually goes into my body. How about you? How's your diet? Do you have any healthy websites that you use to help you along? What are they? See you all tomorrow!!

Teasers

So in the Pilates DVD they do something called teasers. It sounds interesting enough. Try googling it and then trying doing a few. They are ridiculously hard. To do them in the DVD will be one of my long term goals. I did the DVD up to the teasers. There is just no way I'll be able to do them until I lose some weight and gain some muscle. So anyways I got up again. Husband says go back to bed if your tired. Not quite the encouragement I needed. Oh well I still got up right? Today I am sweating good from this workout. Sweat is a big deal for me. I don't normally sweat too much. I npriced years ago when I was treadmilling before I got pregnant with J, there was like a breaking point for my sweat. I didn't sweat for the longest time and then one day it was like a dam broke and I couldn't stop sweating! When you are use to it, it's a little weird at first. Now I kinda like seeing the sweating glow after a workout. I can't wait for it to be like crazy sweat glow!! Well that's it for today!

Broken

So my computer is broken. Took it into future shop yesterday. It sucks not having a computer right now. I am amazed at how dependent I have become on it. Maybe that's a little sad. Anyways, this is far from easy writing this on an iPhone. I missed a week. I was just so incredibly tired so I took the extra sleep instead of working out. I thought though that I should get back into my rythym, so here I go. I tried a new Pilates DVD today. Ab sculpting. It is truly as scary as I sounds. I did most of the DVD, but some of the positions were so incredible that I can only hope to ine day execute them. I also turned up the incline on the treadmill today. Couldn't really tell. I liked that. I know that I have been slow going but I think there might be something to be said about this gradual increase of difficulty. Another thing, I sadly didn't achieve my small goals last week, so I will again be posting the same ones. Maybe with my computer gone there will be less distractions so that I can finish the menu board. I did take all be cooking magazines out an put them on a shelf in my kitchen so that they look me in the face everyday. Ok here they are: Small goal 1. Drink more water. Small goal 2. Finish menu board. Small goal 3. Workout 5 days consecutively. So that's it for today. Please share some of your small goals for the day or week, I would love to hear what you have planned.

Friday

Well usually I don't treadmill on the weekends, but since I didn't make my small goal of 5 consecutive days this week, I think that I will treadmill on Saturday and I think Sunday too.  It would probably be better to do that anyways seeing as how it's only 20 minutes.

I didn't do a very good job of my small goals this week.  I think that they will remain my small goals until I do get them.  Maybe I'll get tired of seeing them and actually finish them.

The weights felt heavier today.  My arms were really burning about 5 minutes in.  I carried them the whole 20 minutes though.

The Pilates DVD isn't getting easier, but I have found that I am able to go a little farther on some of the stretches.  Also I have had this knot in back for I don't know how long.  It used to be very painful to do the Pilates stretches, but I found that today it is hurting a lot less when I do the stretches.  I am glad for that.

The littlest one is crying and wants out, so I guess I better get going.  See y'all later!

A Week

It's been a week since I started my new work out regime.  I like it so far.  The only thing that I don't like is that I'm not recording my stats anymore.  I don't really have any to record though.  I think that once I get going a little faster that I will be able to record it all again.  I do like that I am tread milling without holding  on to anything.  It does feel more productive.  And I'm still sweating so that's good too.

I am seriously falling short of my small goals.  Today is Thursday and I am far from having my Menu Planner done.  I think that I will work on it seriously today.  I would like to have a menu for two weeks and that's flexible for whatever plans we have.

Ok, so that's it for today.  I will take pics of the Planner once it's all finished.  See you all tomorrow!

Lifting Weights

Today I added the weights to walking.  My arms are feeling it.  They are only 5 pound dumbbells, but swinging those babies for twenty minutes was good enough.  Holding them is so weird because when J was born he weighed ten pounds!  The dumbbells feel so much heavier.  I didn't just swing them either.  One of the songs I listened to was quite bouncy so I was lifting them over my head and out to the sides.

I did my Pilates and walking so I guess that's it for today.  It is getting easier to treadmill with no hands and I am glad for that.  I'm hoping that as I pick up the tempo and incline that I can continue not holding onto the handles.  I would really love to be able to do a whole half hour to an hour of running.  I think that along with weight loss that will be my other long term goal.  I can't wait to see in a year where I am.  I hope that it is still doing this blog and that I have reached or at the very least come close to my goals.  I think that I will have to think hard the next few days and see what some of my long term goals are.  You do the same, cause I wanna know what they are!

Tuesday

So I need to start my small goals again.  J was up a lot on Sunday night so I decided to skip the workout for Monday and sleep instead.  Not much sleep was had by him or I on Sunday, so I think it was a better choice.  I think he was overtired from Sunday.  We spent most of the day outside and J had no naps.  He loves being outside and tries to sneak out whenever a door is open.

I did my Pilates and tread milling for the day.  Sometimes I find listening to music a bit of a distraction when tread milling.  When it's a good song playing, I just want to dance.  Dancing and tread milling don't really go together.  I think that if I'm not very careful, I will fall right off and be really sorry.

We bought some 5 pound weights last week.  I think that I am going to start using them while tread milling.

Small goals for this week:
1. drink more water
2. get up everyday to exercise
3. to get my meal planning menu finished and hanging by Friday

How about you?  What small goals will you set for yourself this week?

Look Ma!! No Hands!!

These last two days that I have tread milled, I haven't had to hang onto the bars of the treadmill.  I have been told that this makes for a better workout.  I am hoping that by going slower like I have these past two days, will in the long wrong help me to have workout that has a little more impact.

I did the Pilates DVD again this morning.  In some places it feels like a joke.  The instructor keeps telling me to hold my ankles.  I can barely reach my calves, so I think it's kinda funny.  I can't wait though for the day that I can reach my ankles with no problems.

On another note, I have taken the scale out of the packaging.  It was scary but I did it.  It's not allowed in the bathroom.  I feel better about where it is.  It sits just outside the bathroom door.  I see it but I am not consumed by it.  Anyways I have stood on it.  It was kinda like a nightmare doing that.  I says that I have gained weight since the last time I weighed myself!  Which is sooo surprising!  It's surprising because all my clothes still fit.  I don't know about any of you, but I dread taking jeans out of the dryer and wearing them.  They are always tighter then when I put them in.  But, I haven't had that problem in the recent weeks.  The fit nicely when they come out of the dryer!  I don't really get what the heck is going on but whatever?

The guy that gave me the workout advice said that it could be from the exercise causing everything to get denser, which is a good thing I think.  My hope is that I will start to see some actually weight loss soon.

I have been working on my Menu Planner the last few days.  I want to have a months worth of ideas but next week.  I think that this will also help with the whole picture.  Eating better will help the weight loss and having a menu plan will help our budget.

I know that I have asked before but I'm gonna ask again.  What do you do for healthy meal plans?  What is your family's favourite meal?

Learning

Husband and I put the three boys into a martial arts class about three weeks ago.  I think they are learning something called jujitsu.  They all love it a lot and it poops them out a bit.  Last night when I took the boys to their class I started asking the guy who runs the dojo some questions about my workout regime.  I was actually asking for Husband.  He has been lifting weights for just about a year and was doing the whole protein shake thing but it was getting expensive with how much milk he was drinking for it.  So I asked this guy and he said that Husband should just eat a can of tuna because there is no fat or additives like sugar in a can of tuna.  Then I started asking him about the exercise that I was doing and he suggested that I change a few things.  Instead of trying to do the running that I have been doing, he thought that I should bring the pace and the length of the workout down.  He recommend that I do a ten minute walk at a pace of 3.5 for two weeks and after the two weeks to increase the incline.  He said that this will help with heart rate and stamina.

I felt like he made sense but not really at the same time.  I think in my head a work out should be painful and sweaty.  The weird thing about it all is that this workout wasn't painful but I was sweating.  Not a lot but still sweating.  And he explained the heart rate thing so that it made some sense too.  Not enough sense that I could explain it to you but I think I get it in my head.

Oh and as far as hydrating, I asked if 8 cups of water was accurate.  Guess what he said.  He told me that he recommends 8 LITRES of water.  That is the equivalent of two jugs of milk!!  It seems impossible.

Because I felt that doing only a twenty minute walk just didn't feel like very much of a workout, I add a Winsor Pilates DVD.  It was only 20 mins, but good grief!  What a joke!

See y'all tomorrow!!

Failure?

So yesterday I set a short term goal of staying hydrated through out the day.  I failed that goal early in the morning.  But is it a failure if I keep trying?  I don't think so.  Today is a new day and I am going to be carting a couple of bottles of water around with me today.  On the other hand today is day three of five consecutive days of exercise, so that's a good thing.

Today I went a distance of 2.97.  The treadmill said that I burnt 366 calories.  My heart rate topped out at 159 bpm's but it only hovered there and came back down and stayed around 145 so I'm happy with that.

Until tomorrow!

Small Goal

Ok so I got up today and tread milled.  I went a distance of 3.01kms (I think it's kilometres).  I burnt 369 cals and my heart rated topped out at 154 bpms.

Yesterday I had a horrible headache for half of the day.  I don't think that I am hydrating enough after doing this in the morning.  So I have decided to set some small goals for myself so that there are some small victories in all this.  Maybe I will feel a little less disappointed then.

Goal 1: To do 5 consecutive days for two weeks.
Goal 2: To drink more water during the day.

How about you?  What are your goals for the week?

Tired of it All

I got up earlier than normal today.  Six ten actually.  My shins had been killing me when I was on the treadmill, so I looked up some things to do to prevent them from hurting.  Today I spent about 5-10 minutes stretching.  Don't get me wrong, I stretch every time I tread, but I did some extra stretches today and surprisingly enough, my legs don't hurt today!

I accidentally pulled the emergency cable today, so I haven't got any stats except for my heart rate topping out at 141 bpm.  So that's good.  I think that my stats today would be the same as the last couple of times.

So obviously I haven't blogged in two weeks.  I haven't been on the treadmill at all in two weeks.  Sad.  The week before last, hubby and I took a caregivers course for three days.  It was draining mentally and emotionally.  So I took the last two days of the week off.  Also I had strep throat and my throat was incredibly sore.  The thought of huffing and puffing was just a little too much.

Last week I didn't treadmill either.  I lost the motivation.  I noticed something during the two weeks that I  didn't treadmill.  I ate terribly!  I was looking for sugar all the time and justifying it also.  I felt like such a glutton!

And then last night I was talking with hubby about all this.  I felt like he was pretty disappointed in the lack of consistency with tread milling.  I don't blame him.  I am too.  I am tired of being this way.  I am tired of being overweight.  I am tired of disappointing.

Sleep & Habits

Today I woke up and was so very tired.  But I turned the light on and got going anyways.  My tiny goal is to have five consecutive days of tread milling.  Next week I will do all five.

I went a distance of 2.8 today and burnt 347 cals.  My heart rated topped out at 150 bpm, but it mostly hovered between 135 and 145.  I found it really hard to do the running today without hanging on to something.  Every time I let go of the bars, I could feel myself going backwards to the end of the treadmill.  I don't want to fall off!

Since I have been a little more consistent in tread milling, I have noticed something else besides being regular.  A month ago I would stay up for hours after going to bed reading whatever book I had on the go at that time.  Mostly I did this because I just could not sleep.  I was tired, it was way past 10 but my mind would not turn off.  I found that if I read until I just couldn't keep my eyes open any more, my brain would fall to sleep easier.  Well the last two weeks I haven't had to do that.  And I am happier for it!  When 10 rolls around, I am sometimes asleep before Hubby is!!  Whoo hoo!!!  I am attributing this sleep change to tread milling.  Another good thing about exercise, right?

And on another note.  I happened to be watching the talk show Anderson yesterday and he had the author of a habit book on his show.  It intrigued me because of the post that I made about habits.  So I watched it and the author said that habits are formed by having a cue (nervousness), cycling to a habit (chewing nails), then to a reward (physical release of nervousness).  The author said to take note of when all this is happening and then changing something tiny so that the old habit is replaced.  He also said that people who exercise are less likely to have credit card debt.  Which I find interesting.

So I leave you today with a post work out picture of me.  Until tomorrow!!

Being Regular

So I told Hubby that I wouldn't be getting up today, but when he walked out the door, I was wide awake. So I got dressed and tread milled.  I feel great this morning and am so glad that I got up!

Today I went a distance of 2.88 and burnt 354 cals.  My heart rated topped out at 149 bpm.  A little higher than what I would like but that's ok.  Yesterday I added 30 secs on to my 2.5 mins of running.  So now I am running for 9 mins total during my workout.  Today was really hard to run.  After my first set, my legs just didn't want to go.

I am already starting to reap the benefits of doing somewhat regular exercise.  My body is functioning on a schedule that is keeping me regular, if you know what I mean.  I am usually regular, but since I have been getting up to treadmill, I have found that things are a lot easier.  And that's good.  Sorry if this is TMI, but it's good to be able to talk openly about some things right?

Until tomorrow!

And Again

I am not very good at keeping on going.  I have been debating lately to discreetly post the address to my blog on Facebook.  It's something that I don't really want to do, but I seem to be having a hard time getting up five to six times a week to treadmill.  Maybe if I had more people reading, it would keep me accountable.  It's a thought anyway.

Today I went a distance of 2.97.  The treadmill says I burnt 365 cals.  My heart rate topped out 144 bpm.  And I am sweating pretty good.  Not like dripping off my nose or anything but still sweating none the less.

I found an amazing website yesterday that I think I will be visiting often.  Here is the address http://www.superskinnyme.com/.  It looks good to me.  It has a lot of different calculators on it so that you can find a true healthy weight for yourself.  It uses your body frame not just your height and weight like the BMI calculator.  It also had a good article on heart rates and it made some sense regarding the intensity of a work out and where your optimal heart heat should be.

Anyways that's it for today!

To Hydrate

I didn't run yesterday.  I woke up with a terrible earache that had me almost crying.

I tread milled today.  I went for 40 minutes, running every ten minutes for two and a half minutes each time.  I went a distance of 2.74 and burnt 335 cals.  My heart rate topped out at 144 bpm.  I'm not sweating as much today and that is kinda bothersome.  Next week I am hoping to ramp up my run to three minutes every ten minutes.  I'm nervous about that cause when I am running my calves are just killing me!

So our roommate told me the other day that I shouldn't be refilling bottled water bottles with tap water.  He said that there are still harmful chemicals that can leach into the water from them.  He recommended to use the hard plastic water bottles that you buy specifically for refilling.  Well I have one and I used it for the first time yesterday.  But I don't really like it because of how wide the mouth is.  When I on the treadmill and I go to have a drink, it spills everywhere!  Drives me nuts!  So I was wondering, what do you use to hydrate while exercising?

Second Day

It seems to me that the day after I do tread milling, my body just wants to refuse to go again the next day.  Hubby left this morning and my brain and body debated getting up.  My body said Please just give me this extra hour of sleep.  My brain said get up and go, you'll feel better for it.  I almost fell back to sleep, it was very close when my hand reached out and turned the light on.  I went and brushed my teeth and got dressed and down I went.  My brain was right.  I feel sooo much better now that I have done my exercising.  I feel ready for the day.

So today I went a distance of 2.69 and burnt 325 cals.  My heart rate topped out at 143 bpm.  This week I have been adding 30 seconds to each of my runs.  So I am running a total of 7.5 mins out of the 40 mins that I go for.  Next week I hope to add another 30 seconds to the time so that I would be running for 9 mins.

I did look yesterday for optimal heart rates for losing weight.  It was a little confusing because  a lot of websites said it depends on the intensity of the work out.  Well what the heck does that mean?  I feel like mine is pretty intense but a lot of people would be able to do it with ease.  So I don't know.  According to one site I am in the good heart range for weight loss.  Of course that is based on the intensity of the workout, so I am just going with the lowest intensity.

Anyways that's it for today.  I'll do this again tomorrow.  See you then!

Motivation

Got up this morning with Hubby.  Soooo did not want to move from the bed.  But I did.  I actually got up a little earlier today than normal.  Mostly because I would like to finish my workout and writing before the baby and the kids get up.  It's amazing what five extra minutes will do for you.

So I did my treadmilling and now I feel great!!  I'm glad that I got up.  Today I went a distance of 2.72 and burnt 334 cals.  My heart rate topped out at 132 bpm.  That still doesn't seem high enough to me though, so I might look around the internet today and see what the best heart rate for weight loss is.

On another note, I did it.  I finally bought a scale.  It's just a cheap ten dollar one but it's still in my house close to the bathroom.  I haven't actually taken it out of it's packaging yet.  I have to admit that I am terrified to do so.  If it comes out of the packaging and goes on the floor where I can see it, I might actually have to get on it and see what my negligence, over indulgence and lack of self control has done to my body and my mind.  I'm not sure if I am ready for that.

The website that I linked to in my last post, sparkpeople.com, wants me to find a motivating picture to inspire and well motivate me.  I have been thinking hard about what I want to motivate me and I think that I have a few things that might do the trick.  One is (this might be hard to believe but please don't knock it) to wear a bikini.  I don't think that I would want to wear it in front of people, just on a private beach some where with my husband.  I have never in my life wore one and I would love to know what it's like to have so much of my body showing and looking decent.  My sister in law told me once that wearing a bikini is very difficult and I suppose it is.  I know I hate to wear a bathing suit that has me completely covered!

So I would like to ask, what motivates you?  What besides being healthy makes you want to go and do the dreaded exercise?

Wednesday

So today I didn't treadmill.  Sooo very tired and could not make myself get up at 6:30 this morning.  I hardly noticed hubby getting up and going.  But I did exercise on Monday and Tuesday.

On Monday, E, J and I walked to No Frills to get a few groceries.  E wanted to race part of the way.  Believe me, not something that I wanted to do.  When I see people on TV running and everything is waving a way at you, I always think that's not me when I run.  Except that when I run on the treadmill and put my hands on my ass and hips, things are defiantly not sitting still if you know what I mean.  So on a busy road, the last thing I wanted to do was race my four year old son.  But because he asked me, I did it.  I mean truly what do I care if people in their trucks see this girl waving her flab?  I will probably never see them again and I made my son's day by racing to the corner with him.  That made it worthwhile.  Oh and it was exercise!

That afternoon, we walked all the way up to Starbucks.  It is again simply gorgeous here and I love being able to stay outside.  J is loving being outside, but he did fall about 10 days ago and skinned his nose, so he is a little more cautious.  Not a bad thing with a steep drive way.

On Tuesday I did get up at 6:30am and I tread milled for half an hour cause J started crying and I had to go to him.  I was only short about 10 mins which sucked a little cause I only got two runs in instead of my three.  I added 30 secs onto my running time.  I can't remember any of my stats so sorry about that.

This evening I was checking out some cool blogs that friends have pointed out to me and I found this one http://www.mamalaughlin.com/.  She had this cool tool that she used to help her lose the weight.  I went to look at it and this is what I found http://www.sparkpeople.com.  So I am going to try this online thing to see if it will help things along.

If this doesn't make sense, I'm tired, cut me some slack!!

Thursday

I really do not like having to think up a title everyday for these entries.  I lack in creativity in that department!

Sooo did not want to get up today.  But I did it, cause I had ice cream last night.  I went a distance of 2.55 and burnt 310 cals.  My heart topped out at 150 bpm.  That number seemed a little more normal then what it has been lately.  I have been running each time also.  Right now I am trying to go two minutes without stopping at every 10 minute mark.  So far so good.  I do have to hold on to the bars though.  I know that that is not good but I have been blessed with my mothers great balance and I don't really want to fall off the treadmill.

I would love to work my way up to running for the full half hour of tread milling.  We shall see how that will go.

I have been doing a lot of thinking about this next topic.  That is that I really should take a before picture.  The thought of taking one though, chills me to my very bones.  Taking a picture would mean that if I don't lose this weight and set a goal to lose it in, it would be one more thing I couldn't finish.  I have literally wanted to lose weight for about 15 years.  That's just under half my life.

The other thing that I have to do is buy a scale.  I have never owned one.  I am terrified to own one.  I think that if I did, I would be on it all the time!  Before I pee, after I pee.  Before I eat, after I eat.  The thought of doing that makes me want to puke, literally.

I can see owning a scale turning into an eating disorder.  Which I have also tried by the way readers.  I was able to quit before it took a real hold of my life, but I did give it a good go.  I know how those girls that are too skinny for their own good feel looking into the mirror and being so incredibly unhappy with what they see.  That it isn't good enough.  It's kinda funny though, cause they are on one end of the spectrum and me the other.

Well I guess I will have to break down and get one though.  Maybe I will write the passage from 1 Corinthians on it about our bodies being temples and we should keep them clean.  That would probably help a lot!

Until tomorrow!!

Tuesday Morning

So I really didn't want to get up today.  When hubby kissed me good bye, I debated long and hard about wether or not to get up, but since I had to use the bathroom, I got up.  Didn't want to, but I did.

I went 40 mins today.  A distance of 2.55.  I burnt 309 cals and it says my heart rate topped out at 135 bpm.  I do think that my heart rate was higher.

On another note, I have the monthly friend that most women dread.  Last year I had my last baby.  My tubes were removed due to excessive scar tissue.  Now I just get the reminder that I could have a baby, but that it just won't happen.  I really wish that the OB/GYN would have thought of the potential mental and heart issues that this would cause.

Anyways, thats that for today.  See you tomorrow!

This Morning Thing

Well I wasn't going to get up this morning.  I was tired but when the husband left, I woke up.  I was surprised by how awake I was.  Still, though, I debated staying in bed.  But laying in bed wide awake and thinking, I really should get on the treadmill this morning, was motivation to get moving.

But because I delayed, I didn't get the full tread milling time that I would have like in.  I went ten minutes less then normal.  I went a distance of 1.83 and burnt 219 cals.  I ran again at a 6 for 4 mins today.  While I was running I did my heart rate and it was up to 174.  Crazy!

So the last few days I have been looking for ways to make my meal cooking more healthy.  Last night's supper was good, but it could have been so much better (shake and bake italian chicken and fettucini with homemade spinach alfredo).  I have spent a lot of time searching google and cruising the internet to find a solution.  I think I might have found it!  That solution is too make a magnetic monthly menu that has tiny food magnets to fit on each day.  My hope is that the this method will get the kids involved in meal planning.  And I think that this might be able to keep us on a better food budget throughout the month.

How about you my two readers?  What do you do for meal planning?  How do you keep it healthy?

Habits

I read recently that it takes 21 days to break a habit.  THREE weeks people!  That's a long time!  I was wondering just how long it might take to create a new habit.  It has been plaguing me for some time.  Here's where the problem lies; my kids are 8, 7, and 4.  They have had teeth in their mouths since about a year old.  Husband and I have brushed their teeth twice a day since then.  Now my question is how long does it take to form a habit?  Cause these kids STILL forget to brush their teeth!!  And what scares me is that I haven't been tread milling as much as I want, but how long before it's a habit to do so?  How long do I need to treadmill before I miss it when I don't do it?

Today I got up again when my husband left and I went on the treadmill.  I feel great.  It's really so much easier to do this in the morning.

So anyways, I obviously tread milled this morning.  I went a distance of 2.6 and burnt 314 cals.  My heart rate went up to 136 bpm.  And as far as not tread milling yesterday, it was my birthday.  I slept in and I enjoyed it!  Until next time!

Something a Little Different

So today I got up at 6:14am with my hubby to try something a little different.  I find that I am having a really hard time getting up the motivation to treadmill during the day.  Mostly that is because of all the little people I am taking care of any given day.  So I thought maybe this will be a better way of getting the exercise in, doing it first thing in the am.

Let me tell you, it was far from easy getting up to do this.  I was defiantly not energized in the slightest.  Once I fed J and had put him back to bed all I wanted to do was go back to bed.  But I kept thinking of my two readers and how very long it has been since I wrote on here, so I got out of bed and went to the treadmill.  Sitting here writing this now I actually do feel energized and ready for the day.  Whoo too!!

So today I went a distance of 2.47 and the treadmill said that I burned 286 cals.  I only tread milled for 40 mins but I ran for 6 of them.  I ramped it up a little and went to a speed of 6.  I felt it!  It's not a lot but it is something.  I didn't get an accurate heart rate.  It said that my highest rate was 122 bpm, but they way that I was huffing and puffing, I seriously doubt that.

Anyways I am sweating like crazy and should shower before all the kidlets wake up!  Ta-ta for now!!

Dancing Fool

Well I didn't treadmill today, but I did something different.  I'm not sure if I like it but maybe I'll give it a try for a few days.

For Christmas this past year we got the boys an Xbox Kinect.  We got a few games to go with it and one of them was Dance Central 2.  So that is what I did for 50 mins today.  I have no idea what my heart rate was or how many calories I burnt.  I do know that I was sweating pretty good so hopefully that means something.  Hopefully tomorrow I will write again.

Less Time Today

Well I did treadmill today, but I did less time today.  I did about 25 mins worth and I ran for 6 of those mins.  I burnt about 137 cals and my bpm topped out at about 122.

I did less time today because of children fighting.  It's not fun to try and breakup fights while on the treadmill.  I get the feeling that the kids don't take me as seriously when I am on the treadmill and they are hashing it out and I'm trying to keep them under control while huffing and puffing away.  Alas the hazards of tread milling and child rearing.  See you tomorrow Internet.

Snow

Ok so I know that I haven't posted lately.  I haven't tread milled since I last wrote.....but I have shovelled a LOT of snow.

It's been so mild up here that most of the snow was gone.  It snowed last week on Wednesday but it was so warm out it was melting fast.  I shovelled out driveway and our neighbours driveway, which is ridiculously long and wide I might add!  I also shovelled the sidewalk in front of four houses.  I thought that all that shovelling should be counted as a work out.

So then on Friday it started to snow again.  And it snowed a lot again.  So before husband and I went out for lunch, we shovelled again.  I finished our driveway and did the huge and wide one again.  It was lots of work and a good workout I think.

So this week I should be back to tread milling and writing.  Hopefully I can get a weeks worth in!

A Little Less

Today I went a little less.  A little less time on the treadmill.  I went for 37 mins with running for 6 mins.  I went a distance of 2.25 and burnt 271 calories.  My heart topped out at 133 bpm.

I feel gross.  I am sweating like crazy!  It's a new sensation!  Ha ha ha!!  That's it for today, see you tomorrow!

Again

So it has been awhile since I posted about exercising.  Today was the day.

I went to get on the treadmill and it's flashing LUBE BELT.  So I unwond the belt and lubed it as I well as I could.  I got on the treadmill and started walking.  I went for 50 mins and a distance of 3.04.  My heart rate topped out at 155 and the treadmill says that I burnt 367 calories.  I ran a total of 8 mins.  They weren't consecutive, but I still did it.

I would have gone for an hour, but the treadmill is starting to smell like burnt rubber.  So I guess I better check the motor.

See you tomorrow!

Eight Years Ago Today

Eight years ago today, I became a mom for the first time.  If I thought that eight lbs tipped the earth on its axis, then eight lbs thirteen ounces, turned my world inside out.

I was in love with my baby from before the time we found out about him.  But when he became a reality, oh my heart.  Sometimes I look at A and think, how can he be so big and grown up, I just gave birth to him.

He is my first love.  He hasn't always been an easy child, but I doubt that I was either.

A is one of the most compassionate people I know.  When he was five, his cousin passed away suddenly.  A was so intent on making his aunt and uncle feel better.  He went to his room and went into his penny jar and found four shiny pennies.  He then found some tissue paper and wrapped two pennies by themselves and two pennies together.  I took him to their house and he gave his uncle and oldest cousin the individual pennies.  Then he gave his aunt the two pennies together and said they were for them to remember their lost son and brother.  How a five year old came up with that I don't know.  It melted my heart completely.

He is very aware of others and stops to think of their feelings.  Recently his class went skating and his best friend didn't know how to skate.  A said that he would hold his friends hands and teach him.  When his little friend didn't end up on the ice, A kept saying that his friend didn't need to be sad, that he would teach him.

He melts my heart and it overflows with love for this special child.

 Day old

 One year

 Two years

 Three years

 Four years

 Five years

 Six years

Seven years

He loves to fish and takes it as seriously as any fisherman.  His great grandfather that he was named after would be so proud of him.  He loves camping and will spend hours on the lake shore waiting for that bite.  He loves his pets and keeps them in special place in his heart.  He is always ready for adventure and wants to go go go all the time.  He loves riding his bike and wants to go fast.  He is always asking questions and looking for answers to them.  He enjoys having knowledge and loves to share it with anyone willing to listen.  

I love you A.  Thank you so much for making me a mom.  HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!  Love mom

 

Four Years Ago

Four years ago today, I was given a blessing beyond measure.  It came in the form of a tiny baby boy.  He was a beautiful miracle and I have treasured him since.

My heart beat for him the moment I knew he was on his way, but when he was born, my heart was gone for good.  It is amazing how eight pounds can shift a world off it's axis.

I love being a mom.  It has given me a lot of insight into how our heavenly Father feels about us.  I delight in my sons.  I love watching them grow and learn and become the wonderful boys that they are.

E is my third born son.  He came after a pregnancy hiatus of three years.  Our first two boys are only 12 months and 18 days apart.  Their baby days are a blur.  Having E almost felt like having a first baby again.

He has turned into the most wonderful little boy.  He is a thinker and puzzle solver.  He can put ideas together and keep up to his older brothers so well.  He has a kind heart and is compassionate to others.  He has an imagination that would put an adult to shame.  I love talking to him about everyday things.  He loves to help me in the kitchen and takes part in chores.  He listens well (most of the time).  He loves his baby brother and still wants to hold him even though J is a year old.  He plays well with J and wants to be apart in both his baby brother and older brothers lives.  He gives the best 'great big fat hugs'.  He loves watching movies, especially Cars and Cars 2.  He loves his dad.  He loves spending time with his grandparents.  He has a lot of cars that are 'special' to him.  He has a great laugh.  He can't wait to go camping and I love that about him.  He loves apples and always wants them sliced into a tiny bowl.  He loves his aunties and uncles and cousins.  He can't wait to meet his newest cousin.  He loves babies.   He loves to show off the sparkles on his nose.

 Minutes old

 A few hours 

 1 year

 2 years

 3 years

 3 years

3 years

I am so glad that I get to have E in my life.  I can't believe that he is four years old.  Where did the time go?  E, I love you so very much!  Thank you for being in my world!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Love your mom.  

This Week

So I know that again I haven't been blogging.  Just so you know that that means that I haven't been doing my tread milling.  It's crazy how knowing that I might have readers out there makes me feel bad and WANT to treadmill!

This week didn't really start out so hot.  Today, Wednesday, is E's birthday.  On Monday I decided to go to Walmart and get a few things that were missing for today.  But, alas, J would have none of it.  He was super cranky and needed his bed in a bad way.  So we stayed home instead.

I decided to go to Walmart on Tuesday instead.  We were having so old family friends over and I HAD to go out and get the last little things for that.  So I packed E, J and C up and off we went.  I warmed the van up for fifteen mins, thinking it would be super warm when we got in.  I was wrong.  It was cold and I wasn't sure why.  To top it off, I had put J into a thick hoodie, but not a winter coat.  One of the kids that I watch before school forgot his backpack so I went to drop it off for him.  I noticed the supervisors were bundled up and I still hadn't clued in.  And for any of you readers that aren't up here in Northern Alberta, you know that this winter has been an especially mild with temps hovering around minus five or so.  So me dressing J into the hoodie wouldn't have seemed like such a bad thing, right?

Well I get back into the van after dropping the bag off and am listening to the radio and it's the weather report.  Here it's minus 20 outside.  Minus 20!!  It's no wonder the van wasn't warm!  Thankfully I keep extra blankets in the van for the kids on days like this so they can get and stay warm.

We get to Walmart and I wrap the frosty cart up in the polar fleece blanket so J doesn't stick to it when he gets in.  Our Walmart is under a huge renovation and everything is moved and not in it's normal place.  So our shopping trip that should have taken about 45 mins stretched out to over an hour.  That wasn't even the worst of it.  I went to pay for everything, I even had the bags back into the cart, when I went to pay for it all.  I reached into my purse to get my wallet and it's not there!!  Nope of course not!  It was sitting on my couch at home!!  How irritating!  So I had to go all the way home and then back to Walmart to pay for it all.  Thankfully the lovely ladies at Walmart kept all my bags behind customer service for me and I didn't have to reshop!

The rest of Tuesday was a blur.  I made pies and cookies and cleaned the house.  Our guests arrived around 5pm and we had a great visit and supper if I do say so myself (shake and bake chicken, fettucine with homemade alfredo sauce and a spring salad, super tasty!).

Today is Wednesday so we went to bible study and E had a Valentine's/Birthday Party.  Tomorrow I have some more friends coming in the morning and then I am going out again right after lunch to visit some more.  And then on Friday I have a very old friend coming over to play cards in the evening.  It feels like a very busy week!!

 I'm hoping to be a bit more on a treadmill schedule next week.  I'm contemplating getting up an hour earlier to treadmill, but the thought of losing sleep doesn't sit well.  But on the other hand I wouldn't really have any distractions.  We shall see I guess.

Until next time.

Stepping Out

So today I didn't treadmill, but I did walk to starbucks on the trails that weren't completely plowed pushing a bike trailer/stoller with two almost 20 lbs babies in it.  That might not sound like much of a workout, but I bet if you have been to Northern Alberta in the winter you would know what I am talking about.  It was hard work!

I don't have how many calories I burnt or how high my heart rate was.  Oh well.  I did choose to go through the snow pushing the stroller instead of going around, so that must count for something.  It was not easy at all, but I did cause I wasn't going on the treadmill.

On a side note something funny happened on the way home.  My third son, E, found a paintball on the trail. He picked it up and decided to keep it.  We crossed the bridge and E says to me, 'Mom, what do I do with this stuff?'.  I turn to look at him and he has orange paint running down his fingers.  So I tell him to rub his hands in the snow and to shake it off when he is done.  He follows the directions that I gave him and proceeds to cry because of how cold his hands have got.  So I go to him and try to put his mittens on but E insists that he does not want his mittens to get wet or to have the orange paint inside of them.  So E walked all the way home crying and insisting not to put his hands into his mittens.  We got home and E took his boots off and ran to the bathroom to wash his hands and be rid of the orange paint.  But then he didn't want to get his coat wet because he didn't dry his hands well.  Oh E, you make my heart melt with love for you!

Anyways that's all for today.  I leave you with a picture from our walk.

Starting Again

So I missed a week.  I had some very sick kids last week.  That made it very hard to do any tread milling.  It might seem like a poor excuse, but it is not easy to do anything when you have a clingy one year old who refuses to be put down.  He even fell asleep on me and that hasn't happened since about six months ago.

I tread milled today.  I went for one hour.  I really wanted to quit at around 20 mins.  But I really wanted to say I went an hour and also I didn't have a good reason not to go an hour, so I did it.  The treadmill said that I burnt 390 calories and that my heart rate topped out at 133 bpm.  Ok that's all for now.  Will be back tomorrow.  :)

Another Day

So I missed Wednesday cause of a migraine.  Took some Advil and felt much better.

Treadmilled tonight for 40 minutes while hubby worked out in the garage.  Burnt 275 cals and topped out at 130 beats.  I really hope that I can make this a true habit and lose it all.

So the name of this blog is actually two fold.  The last two years I have tried really hard to be transparent and live an honest life.  It has not always been easy, but I think that I have done a not to bad job.

Anyways, I just wanted this blog to be about both a weight loss journey and an unraveling of my heart.  We shall see how it will all go.  See you all tomorrow! ;)

The Second Day

Well I really didn't want to treadmill today but I thought I better since I might have people reading, haha!  I managed 42 minutes today and heart rate topped out at 136 beats.  The treadmill told me that I burnt 268 cals so that's something.

It's bitterly cold today where I live.  Negative 37 with a windchill of -47.  So the kid lets all stayed home from school today.  The boys along with the extra ones I watch played xBox for most of the morning.  But guys were still pretty hyper though, so I found some youtube videos of cardio workouts and made them do them to wear a little of the extra energy they still had.  It's a blast to watch them try and follow the fitness leaders.

Well the littlest guy is crying so I better go and get him.  I'll see you tomorrow.

Starting Somewhere

So I have been considering for sometime starting a blog.  I read on someone else's blog that people who blog are more likely to lose weight.  Well here's hoping that that is the case.

I need to lose weight.  I want desperately to be around when my kids are adults.  I want to live a long life with my husband.  So this blog is for accountability purposes.  But I am also hoping to record life also.  It can be hard some days with little people growing before my very eyes.

So today I walked on the treadmill for one hour at a speed of 3.5-3.7.  It says I used 375 calories and my heart rate topped out at 137.  I watched Contagion while walking.  I hope that this works.